Happy Valentine’s Day.
They have this tradition at San Ramos High that people can sign up and send carnations. The money goes to Student Government I think, and last year there was a big deal about who got the most flowers.
You got to write a message for your carnation, and each one cost $2.00. I did one for Diego that said, “Friends forever,” even though I want us to be more than friends—most of the time. I did one for Tessa and I wound up writing the same thing, which is weird, because Diego and Tessa are very different, except they both are good listeners. I really like having someone around who listens and pays attention.
I thought about doing one for Jenn, but I didn’t know what to say. I mean she twists everything around. I thought about doing one for Rob, because we’re working together, but when I tried to write on the card, I felt weird.
The girl from Student Council who was taking the money said I could send it anonymously. Something inside my stomach clenched when she said that. I don’t know why, but I didn’t send him anything. So on Friday, Student Council people came in at the end of second period and gave them out.
Rob sent me one that said, “You’re a hottie and it’s fun working with you.” I know he was trying to be nice, at least I think he was, but it made me all squirmy inside. Diego said, “Glad we are still friends. You’re the coolest girl I know.” I smiled when I read it. Tessa said, “I’m glad we’re friends.” The fourth one said, “Anonymously yours, Your Secret Admirer.” Seriously! It’s a little creepy, I know. I’ve been looking around since I got it, trying to figure out who this Secret Dude is.
When the Student Council kids came in with the flowers, I thought about Bri. He was one of them last year. Only a year ago… I hope he is okay, wherever he is.